Today I fell apart. Completely fell apart. I didn't care anymore about anyone or anything. I didn't care if the world came to stop and we all die. In fact I wanted to die. I wanted to die so badly, yes I couldn't take my own life because I was too weak. I begged God to let me die. That if I went quietly and silently, the world wouldn't even know what happened.forgive me 'GOD ;(