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HANYA ALLAH SWT TAHU BETAPA SAKITNYA HATI AKU SEKARANG AND I FEEL I WANT TO CRY RIGHT NOW, KBYE :/

 Almost all relationships had a fight. Before this, I don't take it seriously when I had fight with him. But now , it's different. Every time I had a fight with hazrik, i become more weaker and weaker and weaker, and sometimes, i just wanna cry all day long. I try to controlled it but it's hard for me. Maybe, i still have the childishness inside me, yeah. I realized that. I'm sorry I'm not a perfect girlfriend, i'm sorry. But the way you talk to me, it's kinda hurt my feeling way deep.  I'm not strong i need you by my side, but then ego. I'm sorry for making you angry, make you upset with me and i'm sorry i'm not a good girlfriend. If this is the way for you to go your own path, i accepted it. If you will be more happy without me, why should i prevent you to search for your own happiness, right? HUMM ,ilove you muhamad hazrik until end of my life. :'(

That’s true. I just hate to be a fifteen years old girl. I just hate to be me. I just hate my life, screw me. Hey, do you ever know how I feel? Do you get butterflies in your stomach? Do you have me on your mind 17/4? Do you wait for me to come online for hours? Do you smile at random times at the thought of me? Do you miss me all the time? Do you think about the smallest thing that I’ve said to you? I'm sorry I have to write this, but I got no one to babble this thing out. Argghh! I just miss those old days. Those old happy days. God, please do make my life even better next time. I just want to be happy, live without a problem. But I thank god for giving me a supportive family and awesome best friends and beloved boyfriend :’) ya  I know, sometimes people cry not because they’re weak, it’s because they’ve been strong for too long. Seriously, it happens. Yeah I do know that when something bad happens, I have three choices. I can either let it define me, let it destroy me or I can l